First It Giveth, Then Taketh Away.

SO gonna get the Lg KG800 Chocolate and Creative Zen V Plus.

Huzzah!

Well I guess it’s worth 4 suicides. Can’t really blame anybody.

Must have been the air-con’s fault. Damn.

Just done 11.5km at MR. Going to Sembawang Park tomorrow for another run. I guess the only thing that motivates me now is running. People often see running as a boring form of activity. I see running as a form of escape, an escape from the harsh reality of everything else. Some people read, others ball. I run.

Coach mentioned something about forming an external running club. I won’t deny that I really want this club to be formed, and I hope it will be put into action soon. Can’t wait! Hopefully the rest would be all for the idea as well.

On another note, would be getting my results back in another 2 days time. Am not particularly looking forward to it as yours truly didn’t put enough effort. Just hoping I wouldn’t have to repeat any modules. Fuck! Ohmigod.

 Oooh weeelllls.

Gotta go poop.

Basic Theory Test’s going to be on the 16th of October, which coincidentally happens to be the first day of the new semester. Looks like I might have to skip some lessons.

YES!!!!

Finally going to register for my basic theory test. Hopefully able to get the 9th October slot.

YEAH! (:

I realised I might have a phone fetish. HAHA. I can’t stop eyeing another handphone model even though mine is still pretty new. Currently aiming for the Sony Ericsson W900i right now.

Oh no!! I’m such a phone whore.

First day of track and field IVP 2006. Originally held at SP Stadium but shifted to Bukit Gombak stadium, reason being SP doesn’t have an electronic timer. Realised they didn’t use the electronic timer at Gombak either. So yep. They must be retarded or something.

Anyways, SP track didn’t do very well compared to the other schools, with RP being the exception. Can’t expect too much either. Not enough preparation and commitment. But still, good job and well done to all the competitors today.

“Run for yourself, not for anybody else.” – Coach Robin Tan

Felt kinda disappointed that I couldn’t take part. Maybe I should like hijack NP Track’s training next year so I can go for the trials. Like go once in a month or something, just to let them know my face. But then I would be such an asshole to be training at both SP Track and NP Track.

“But NP Track more pretty girls leh !!” -Anonymous

Yah man!! Hahahaha. But I know I won’t go because if I do, I would be such an asshole lah.

Anyways, really very really very very sincerely hope that all of us can show more commitment and put more effort into training yeahhhhhh. 

Nobody wants to go home disappointed. 

Went down to the stadium to watch some of the guys train. Saw her but didn’t really want to talk. Maybe that’s it. I should really stop thinking. Sometimes it’s really straining mentally. Oh wells. Like they always say, life goes on.

Life goes on..yes. But nobody wants to live to a ripe old age. Even though many relish the idea, they supposedly didn’t put into consideration the circumstances they would be in many years down ahead. As time goes by, our intentions lay bare, and they soon fade and disappear.

And then I ask myself again, who do I live for, what do I live for? My life feels so aimless, without purpose.
Bah. So much rantings, so little done.

I need a change. New environment, new friends, new goals, new challenges. I want to take my life in another direction. To be away from what it used to be. The angst, criticism, contradictions, irony, obsession, passion.

Sometimes, I don’t understand the language in my head.  

“I sit and talk to God, and he just laughs at my plans.”